Man i hate reading my old journals on here i seemed like such a dumbass.
I'm pretty much emabarressed that i even said any of that. WOW . So let's get down to buisness i bleached my hair it's blonde now, i feel rather iconic..... I'm probably going start dating this girl named maddie, she's gorgeous and has a great personality. I feel diffrent as of late xD. I'm going to be posting more stuff today and throughout the week.

shit son... man i need to get new pictures i completley change dmy hair my everything i'm so much hot ter now xD. I need to get laid it's been four months and i got busted with my brother's friend so i can't pursue that anymore lol shitty deals. I need money gahh i want to get more weedus FUCKING SHIT took up smoking again that's a;ways fun. School's almost over that'll be great then i can be out for days if i want to... man i need some weedus and a smoke right now, plus i started long boarding and i'm sexy

Hi remember me rachel?lol well it's nearly the 25th and i suck! tonight will be my birthday party with friends FUN but it also fills me with angst i'm pretty much in love with adam i know he likes me but he's dating someone he doesn't even like wow.I must suck or something worse. I doubt I did good in finals and i'm on anti-depressants (since december) and sleeping pills (since the 16th. i've been living with my father because my mother went fucking crazy.I've reverted to cutting again.. fucked up my arm good...My dad won't leave me alone because he's worried or something. I don't know. I feel like a fucking freak of nature but I'll get through it the weed helps XD self medication jking but it's been everyday recently so that might be gud? Possibly...maybe? i don't know well ineed to go so maybe i'll post picture later or tomorrow who knows who really fucking cares no onw that's fucking who well anyways if you read this i'm normally not pissed off but i've been up since 2 andi've had no sleep.. butr that's not an excuse but thanks for reading this i don't mean to rant but at least what i feel can go somewhere and maybe looked at once.. instead of me worrying about everyone else.. i hope tha veryone's happy and alive and feels good becaus i hope i can do everything for everyone so they can be happy because i love everyone and hope they'r ehappy and sucure so plz sleep well and have good dreams not for me but for yourself.....

if anyone even looks at my profile this is for them to know what's going on!ok well i deleted a whole bunch of older deviations and now i'm starting some real photography(well sorta)also i will be adding a fuck ton of poems which are kinda like (a) letters/short story.. it's rreally awesom i've also started my fashion line called:"lover x hater because guys just want in your tutu" i rhink it's an awesome name it's mostly female orienred..for guys i do a few bags maybe a shirt or two...i really don't know yet...also some pics(where i look like a drag queen) will be submitted to show some or my work with that fashion line.And some newish photos of random stuff!!!!!!!!

that's it really so pce

man i'm aretard i thought my dog was lost when really she was on the couch i started freaking and stuff also i just got a new desk and that means a place to draw yay